I can't promise you that this will be easy, but I think your driving force should be one of self-discovery. This place being what it is, your contribution to your family will likely fall into your lap naturally. So, you should be the focus instead.

[ His grip on her hands tightens just a bit, and he looks at her with a soft sort of smile. ]

And it's okay to feel lost. A journey without a map is a difficult one to make.