[ She doesn't want to talk about it. She really doesn't want to talk about it. She wants to be the happily smiling March 7th who keeps her chin up and doesn't dwell too hard on her past--and she doesn't, not often, but-- ]

Whatever secrets my memories hold... it was bad enough to get sealed off on purpose. And I do want to know, even with all the warnings they gave me, and how they tried to stop me, saying that it was for the best that I didn't dig deeper, but...

[ Her fingers are shaking, slightly. Not a realization she expected to have today, in this conversation, but Winter's always been good at getting to the heart of things. To her own detriment, this time. ]

Maybe I... did something really terrible. Maybe I'm a monster. And I don't think I'd want to... try for something more with anyone, without letting them know that first. And I know it's stupid, but I'm so... scared of losing someone precious to me because of something I'm still trying to unlock!

[ That includes Winter too, honestly. ]