[ Oh. Well. She's seen a lot of things in her decade-long career as innkeeper, but this is definitely... new, and one-of-a-kind. She tips her head curiously, her own flickering light of stars in her eyes following the movement of his tattoo, watching as ink moves across his skin and then out of it, taking a very three-dimensional shape indeed.
[ She startles a little, at its frigid and slippery feel around her finger.
Without really thinking, her hand moves, and the rest of her fingers curl around the tendril in turn, giving it something that resembles a handshake. ]
Are you controlling this, Winter? Or is it an extension of your patron's will...?
Ah, well, it was a while ago, and frankly it's easier to laugh about it now.
[ Sometimes one has to laugh so as to keep from crying, but in Winter's case, it's more that he's made some measure of peace with that day. The man who did it to him is long dead and gone, never to harm him or anyone else again. ]
I'm not in any pain, no. I frankly don't know what my patron did to me that day to seal my wound and save my life, but some of them mixed with some of me, and now here I am with a whole set of new arms.
[ The tendril around her wrist wriggles a little. ]
[ But Winter does sound as if he's at peace with what happened, or at least at peace enough for the tone of voice he uses, so she ultimately relents.
She must, anyhow, as the movement of his tendril does startle her back into awareness. With a tentative touch, she curls her other hand over what is coiled around her wrist.]
I suppose as long as your pact isn't causing you harm, that's enough for a humble innkeeper like myself.
My cavalier attitude probably isn't helping that fact, is it?
[ He does look a bit apologetic. Those close to him already know this story, and have known it for years. But he has to remind himself that for Sumina, it's new. And more than that, she doesn't live the kind of life he does. Danger is not a normal occurrence for her, outside of the odd tavern brawl.
The tenacle slips away under her touch, sliding free of her grip, but only so that Winter's own hands can replace it. He takes her hands in his own, much larger ones. In part so he can quietly Prestidigitation away the bit of film left on her skin, but more so because he wants to ground her in this moment. ]
You care very much about all your patrons, don't you?
[ An unknowable feeling sinks into her chest and tightens it, but as it is, there's no telling whether she feels this way because of the way Winter grasps her smaller hands in his, or because of the question he asks thereafter.
...She nods, while her gaze all the while stays fixed on their joined hands. ]
I try to remember everyone's names and their occupation, at the very least. Then, what they enjoy to eat and drink. Where they've been, where they're off to next. Who they travel with.
You go above and beyond so often, you know that? I often find myself in awe of just how much you give to your work, but then again perhaps that's why you're here.
[ She nods when given his permission, but needs a few more moments to think of how she should speak of this. Somehow, it's so much easier when someone prompts her for this information, but for her to simply offer it up without real reason—
Well, no, there is a real reason. She wants Winter to know about these things... ]
Nothing I say is... a secret, exactly, but it's not something I've often talked about, especially at the inn, and especially to guests.
[ A deep breath. NPC dialogue cutscene time. ]
...You know, of course, how long-lived elves are. Astral elves especially, given the amount of time they might spend in the Astral Plane, where time doesn't pass. My family has always been a bit of an outlier even among their people, given how much time we tend to spend outside of the silvery void. But still...
Normally, the inn changes hands every decade. For elves, a stint at the inn for that long is rather short indeed, yes? But for people like us, Winter... we won't live as long. And I've just completed my tenth year...
[ In so saying, the real reason her family had been so adamant about her taking a break... is because her time is up. ]
Not... In those words, no, but I think we all understood, inherently. It's just—
[ She closes her eyes. ]
Time works differently for us, doesn't it? Spending the next ten years doing something else might not feel like such an ordeal for my relatives, but... I could work ten, twenty, thirty years or even more before I would ever want to take such an extended break...
Mm. I think your relatives mean well. Perhaps it is less about giving into the wanderlust in your elven blood and more about deference to your much shorter life. After all, if you give everything you have to the inn, then what's left for Sumina?
[ His gaze drifts down to their joined hands, his thumb lighting brushing over the back of her hand. She's so small compared to him, and yet there are so many responsibilities in those hands, so many lives that come to her for comfort and care, room and board, even if just fleetingly. ]
I think it's worthwhile to speak to them, to make sure they understand that your need for a break needn't be so long. But it's also worthwhile to enjoy your time away, as well.
[ If you give everything you have to the inn, then what's left for Sumina?
That's just it, isn't it? The question that she has been made to reckon with since coming here, where she has no responsibilities, no duties, no... identity. Her days have felt awfully empty without the need to be up to tend to guests, without a long list of to-dos, and so she has filled them instead with "research," with the notion that even if she's not at the inn, she can still contribute to it. It's an emptiness that she still doesn't know what to do with.
...But it helps, that Winter is here. His presence had always seemed a steadying force amongst his fellow Bluecloaks whenever their stays overlapped - how funny, that she'd never thought he might be a steadying presence for her. ]
I know. We are... A tight-knit family, with a few exceptions. I know that everyone has each other's best interests at heart... There's something else, too.
Normally, when someone strikes out on their own and starts traveling, they also... contribute something, to the inn. Something that builds on what our forebears laid out. I'll... never be an adventurer, Winter. Even if I trained myself in other arcane or martial arts and became capable of holding my own, I simply lack the desire. So I've always thought... That taking over the inn, so that the others can travel to their heart's content... That would be my contribution.
[ There it is again, that particular sort of selflessness that he has come to associate with her. So willing to stay behind. To take on the work. To find herself forgettable.
Admirable, in a way, but so very lonely in so many others. ]
Is that why you're so intent on your "research" as well? Because you feel you have to bring something back?
Mm. That's exactly it. I can learn so much here, not just from the library, but from the other guests, too. Just like my more adventurous family members would on their travels.
You know, I think that whatever knowledge you can bring back will be valuable. You needn't run yourself ragged trying to find something. But you also strike me as the type to feel lost without something to drive you. Am I wrong?
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...She waves back. ]
All right. I am a little curious...
[ Can... she poke it. ]
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You can touch it if you want.
[ So saying, that tendril reaches for her in turn. She'll find it's cool to the touch... and a little slimy. It wraps itself around her finger. ]
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[ She startles a little, at its frigid and slippery feel around her finger.
Without really thinking, her hand moves, and the rest of her fingers curl around the tendril in turn, giving it something that resembles a handshake. ]
Are you controlling this, Winter? Or is it an extension of your patron's will...?
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[ It slithers through her grip to wrap loosely around her wrist. ]
Your hand is quite warm.
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I-Is it? Your. Um. Tentacle is quite cold.
[ help, though. what a sentence. ]
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They are. I don't know why that is. Perhaps in deference to my name.
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Perhaps, or maybe they're from a particularly frigid sector of the astral sea, and that's reflected through this...
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It's quite possible. I was... sort of dying at the time so I cannot fully remember what it felt like to get these marks.
[ He's so casual about it??? ]
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You say that so casually...
[ So many of them do. So many adventurers walking through her doors having narrowly escaped death, as if it were as natural as breathing. ]
It doesn't... Hurt, does it? To bear these marks.
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[ Sometimes one has to laugh so as to keep from crying, but in Winter's case, it's more that he's made some measure of peace with that day. The man who did it to him is long dead and gone, never to harm him or anyone else again. ]
I'm not in any pain, no. I frankly don't know what my patron did to me that day to seal my wound and save my life, but some of them mixed with some of me, and now here I am with a whole set of new arms.
[ The tendril around her wrist wriggles a little. ]
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[ But Winter does sound as if he's at peace with what happened, or at least at peace enough for the tone of voice he uses, so she ultimately relents.
She must, anyhow, as the movement of his tendril does startle her back into awareness. With a tentative touch, she curls her other hand over what is coiled around her wrist.]
I suppose as long as your pact isn't causing you harm, that's enough for a humble innkeeper like myself.
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[ He does look a bit apologetic. Those close to him already know this story, and have known it for years. But he has to remind himself that for Sumina, it's new. And more than that, she doesn't live the kind of life he does. Danger is not a normal occurrence for her, outside of the odd tavern brawl.
The tenacle slips away under her touch, sliding free of her grip, but only so that Winter's own hands can replace it. He takes her hands in his own, much larger ones. In part so he can quietly Prestidigitation away the bit of film left on her skin, but more so because he wants to ground her in this moment. ]
You care very much about all your patrons, don't you?
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...She nods, while her gaze all the while stays fixed on their joined hands. ]
I try to remember everyone's names and their occupation, at the very least. Then, what they enjoy to eat and drink. Where they've been, where they're off to next. Who they travel with.
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[ The mention of the reason for her being here stirs that feeling again, bidding her to curl her fingers tightly in his. ]
I'd like to tell you something, too, Winter. It has to do with why I'm here. Is that alright?
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Of course. You can tell me anything.
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Well, no, there is a real reason. She wants Winter to know about these things... ]
Nothing I say is... a secret, exactly, but it's not something I've often talked about, especially at the inn, and especially to guests.
[ A deep breath. NPC dialogue cutscene time. ]
...You know, of course, how long-lived elves are. Astral elves especially, given the amount of time they might spend in the Astral Plane, where time doesn't pass. My family has always been a bit of an outlier even among their people, given how much time we tend to spend outside of the silvery void. But still...
Normally, the inn changes hands every decade. For elves, a stint at the inn for that long is rather short indeed, yes? But for people like us, Winter... we won't live as long. And I've just completed my tenth year...
[ In so saying, the real reason her family had been so adamant about her taking a break... is because her time is up. ]
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Did they tell you as much? That you were being sent away because your time is over?
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[ She closes her eyes. ]
Time works differently for us, doesn't it? Spending the next ten years doing something else might not feel like such an ordeal for my relatives, but... I could work ten, twenty, thirty years or even more before I would ever want to take such an extended break...
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[ His gaze drifts down to their joined hands, his thumb lighting brushing over the back of her hand. She's so small compared to him, and yet there are so many responsibilities in those hands, so many lives that come to her for comfort and care, room and board, even if just fleetingly. ]
I think it's worthwhile to speak to them, to make sure they understand that your need for a break needn't be so long. But it's also worthwhile to enjoy your time away, as well.
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That's just it, isn't it? The question that she has been made to reckon with since coming here, where she has no responsibilities, no duties, no... identity. Her days have felt awfully empty without the need to be up to tend to guests, without a long list of to-dos, and so she has filled them instead with "research," with the notion that even if she's not at the inn, she can still contribute to it. It's an emptiness that she still doesn't know what to do with.
...But it helps, that Winter is here. His presence had always seemed a steadying force amongst his fellow Bluecloaks whenever their stays overlapped - how funny, that she'd never thought he might be a steadying presence for her. ]
I know. We are... A tight-knit family, with a few exceptions. I know that everyone has each other's best interests at heart... There's something else, too.
Normally, when someone strikes out on their own and starts traveling, they also... contribute something, to the inn. Something that builds on what our forebears laid out. I'll... never be an adventurer, Winter. Even if I trained myself in other arcane or martial arts and became capable of holding my own, I simply lack the desire. So I've always thought... That taking over the inn, so that the others can travel to their heart's content... That would be my contribution.
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Admirable, in a way, but so very lonely in so many others. ]
Is that why you're so intent on your "research" as well? Because you feel you have to bring something back?
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Mm. That's exactly it. I can learn so much here, not just from the library, but from the other guests, too. Just like my more adventurous family members would on their travels.
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...Seeing as this is the first time in my life I've really felt lost... I'm inclined to agree with you.
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